"happy" halloween?

Where is the happy in my halloween? I cant believe my mom didnt let me go out today. Its not like im gonna go get some freakin drugged up candy or some shit. what kinda person do you think i am? im your damn son, give me some fucken trust.

Sigh, and then my friend called me up and told me to come to church. and well, my mom cant say no to church on any day^^ i didnt have much to do at home so i went~ it was pretty fucken tiring as hell, but at least i got to eat some tacos:]. and then again i forgot that i would see you there.. but nothing happened o.O Im glad you decided to take it back, or at least not mention it, or whatever. As long as you dont bring it up, i feel safe around you as a friend. but.. why were you so quiet? did you know that i knew? or were you having second thoughts? did i say something wrong? because of the fact that i know you like me, i feel so guilty for almost any of your problems...

well, thats my "happy" halloween-house arrest and love paranoia^^

oooh! almost forgot. some girl asked me for my number :] hee hee but i already sorta met her once before so nothing new:/

1st

I dont think I like you at all... I didnt think I was leading you on anywhere was I? how am I "different" from all the other guys? im NOT. im no different than anyone else. You're confused, please just accept that. You hardly know me, and you think you're crazy about me? just stop right there. i dont feel any vibes between you and me at all.. even if i did go out with you, you'd prolly only get less than half of me, because im not so "crazy" about you. And thats just stupid right? so just stop and think for a moment, before you hurt yourself. i dont wanna lose you as a friend, so just take back what you said..please.



Sigh, I know, I feel like a douchebag for blogging too. But who cares, nobodys gonna read this :]