Kiss Kiss

YAYY it feel so good to get it overwith:) sorry im so slowwwwwwwwwwwww>.<
VALENTINES DAYYY is comin up:/ sighh i hate ittt. it makes you feel obliged to do something special for that someone specialll...but what can i do? im not good with this stuffff~

SIGH FUCK CHEMM IMMA FAILL go to smccc: you just cant lie and take shortcuts in life can you..it all catches up and before you know it youre in a shithole for cheating life. ohwells~

WOOOOOO

Hmmm everythings going SO well! well, except maybe my grades? LOL anywayssssss~
Im starting to like you alot:] most people would laugh and scoff, but who are they to judge what i see in you? love is between 2 people and 2 people ONLY, and i guess, well, thats all that really matters, and if not, well, im sorry to say but youre simply not in love.

SIGH i wish there were more steps in relationships. the only thing i can think of is...hand,hug,kiss,boom,ring? In vague terms, those are the only actual steps... I really would kiss you.. but ehh i dont know how i would? should i just surprise you and plant one? should i look into your eyes right before i do? should i tell you to close your eyes? are you okay with me doing this?

sigh, why cant we just have lips on our hands? itd be so much easier that way :[

Spur of the moment

it was all nothing, now i see. I guess i was just happy because i havent been with anyone for so long. because i never felt the warmth of anothers hand, because i never felt the love of anothers heart, for so long.

But now that i look at it, i dont see anything. Youre this, and im that. i dont know what im doing. in a way, i like you too...but it feels half assed.. like a math problem with no work shown.

And now that i see all this, i really dont want to come off as a jerk and throw it all away. i wanna be able to tell you all this, let you feel what i feel, so that you dont hate me. But i dont know how..
im so full of shit. sorry.